Life Can Really Suck

Hey there Cyberspace. I'll be keeping this one a hell of a lot shorter than the last couple. Sorry... I hadn't actually realized how much I wrote there until I went back and read it over.

I've been extremely depressed this past week or so for about three reasons. If it's more than that... well, whatever. But it's mainly these three reasons::

One: My dad took my phone away... asshole. He left my mom and me and my brother when I was three... And now he thinks he has a right to control my life. I've told him, to his face, to "go fuck himself" I don't even know how many times... and yet he reads a text I got, sees swearing and says it's his "fatherly right and responsiblity" to read what his daughter has been up to. He sees swearing and takes my phone away. I've asked a couple people to look for it, and no one, I repeat, NO ONE can find it anywhere!!! GAH!

Two: My sister, Mizz Scene Queen, jacked my computer and now it is buried somewhere in the deep recesses of her bedroom. A bedroom of which you need a HAZMAT suit just to WALK PAST! Like seriously. A plus on this depression... she has to spend the day cleaning that pit of a black hole she calls a room.

And, last but mostly likely the main MAIN reason for my depression! I have no money for school in September. If you would have asked me last year, if I could ever get depressed about not being able to go to school, I would have laughed in your face. I mean, I hated High school. Those years were probably the worst ever for me. And now that I finally know what I want to be "when I grow up" and what i want to take in College, I HAVE NO MONEY FOR IT! My parents didn't put money towards a college fund. And, sadly, the only job I've had, I can't get anywhere else because I don't have the college certificate for it!

That one certainly turned around to bite me in the ass. Well, anyway I just wanted to get that out. It's better to say what's on your mind than keep it bottled up and fall farther into the bottomless pit that is depression. And now, cyber ladies and gents, I'm off to try and talk my brother into going for a drive with me... I want this book really badly but the closest store that has a copy is like a half hour away from me... and I don't want to go alone. Does that make me a chicken or just smart considering its pouring rain and I don't have a cell phone? Meh, I'm going with smart.

Until next time Cyberspace...

(haha, that totally sounded like a goodbye cue for the news or something... woow... lame XD)